We gather a lot of "stuff" throughout our lives and it seems we feel we are defined by it all. It all expresses our style, our "likes," our uniqueness, our feelings and often, in a way, reflects how we want people to see us--tidy or nonchalant, artistic, creative, unique, colorful, earthy--and we try to display our homes to show that.
I have been sorting through all my life's accumulation, and carefully pondering each item. I have realized that I am not defined by it all. I also have come to realize that it is time to let go, to keep memories but release items. I have given some to people I know who will appreciate and enjoy them. Some things I have donated so others can discover and display them. It is like releasing a bird, and know it will land where it should.
The memories will always be with me, will live in my heart.
Oh, I am not getting rid of everything, but am definitely making my life lighter, the load less heavy.
Eventually, when all is done, I will leave this home, and hope a sweet family will move in and create new memories here. I will begin a whole new life, a life at 60+, after 36 1/2 years of marriage and 1 1/2 years as a widow. I guess you could say I have been through a lot of changes the last several years, and those who know me know the struggles. My sails are a little tattered but came through it all. Some say I am stronger, though sometimes when alone I do not feel strong. Sometimes I cry for the losses. But I also have treasures in my life--dear friends who care and are there for me, a wonderful church and Pastor who offers support, and a family who cheers me on. Most important and treasured of all is my dearest friend for the past 47 years, Sue. I am thankful every day for her love and care. She is one treasure I will always keep.